Surely I'm not...

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Melancholy?

I woke up feeling kind of weird today. I can't quite put my finger on it. I think it's something internally, but I guess that much is obvious.

I should feel happy because I had a good weekend, including a good weekend with the girlfriend yet I think I'm still not happy. I wish there was some sort of handbook that gave you directions when you get lost in a relationship. A step by step guide would do me wonders.

I did get to go to an NFL game with a friend of mine. He's a season ticket holder and his wife bailed on him for Sunday's game so he called me to see if I wanted to go. We had a really good time. Besides the game, the best thing about football is the number of really hot women at the games.

I need to find a fix for what I'm feeling...it's eating me up.

It's been a hell of a ride...

What a crazy few weeks. Here's the thing, I keep thinking to myself that I have to write about this and I have to write about that, yet I never do. That's all I have been doing because of my crazy few weeks, thinking.

Here's what I've been doing/seeing/saying:

• Worked with a tranny
• Argued vehemently
  
• Met two awesome women
• Decided one woman wasn't that awesome (If you're reading this, it's not you. You're still awesome to me)
  
• 'I appreciate you..'
• Wondered if I was getting hit on
• Asked myself, 'Is this really worth it?'
• Cried
• Smiled

..while not comprehensive it kind of sums up things where I've been lately.